my last entry for you :')

here, i jst wanna remember how our first meet, and in this entri i will tell you how my feel for ya.

i remember, i see you sit in front of eight B class, you smile to me and i smile too. i knw you, you are my junior in elementary school. i remember how you look me and watch me. at that moment, i dnt feel anything, haha yeah jst like usual but i dnt knw excatly how you feel wth me.

like every day i do, i jst walk away in front of you, dnt care wht you do and dnt care wht you say.

until one time, i'm on the way to go home and i look at you walk away wth your friend, i really-really dnt care but after i look at you, i hear you call my name. i'm surprissed and turned my head. haha i'm so cnfused and strange wth what you do.

and when ramadhan, after i pray, i received a message, i dnt knw who is sender frm that message. and the sender said "may i knw you?" i said "oh yes, who you are?" and he tell his name, his name is *tiiiiit*. after that i ask him "are you my junior in elementary school?" he said "yeah ahahah". i  jst can say "oh my god, wht will he do to me and wht him wnt frm me?" and after that, we chat and talk about many more, and until one night, he said he loves me and next day, i said i wanna be his girl friend and since that, we are in a relattonship :D

yeah, i must say, he is my first love. as ussual, you will never knw wth who you'll fallin in love. i dnt knw how and why i must fall in love wth him. since i love him, i'm very hppy everyday, altough he alwys make a mistakes and i alwys frgive him, in my mind, he alwys true and he alwys the best ever boyfriend haha LOL

time by time, month by month, our relationship has 11 month. i'm so exited and every day, thats love alwys become more. but when our relationship in 11 month, we must be apart. he makes a lot of affair wth ather women. i really broke up. my heart hurt so bad. every night, i jst can cry and cry in my room. dnt care wht everyone do.

hhh.. but do you knw smthing? altough he alwys lie wth me, alwys hurt me and dissapoint me, i never hating him and i still love him. haha like an idiot rite?

and now, i jst wanna delete these memories from my mind. i'm tired to cry and feel a broken heart. yeah, i must stop it. so, i must delete him frm my mind. oh not him, but my feelin for him.

here, i jst wanna say that i'm so hppy ever being wth ya and thnkyou so much, for your love and your lie.

and now, I HAVE STOP TO THINKING BOUT YOU. but i hope, we still can be friends.

thnks for all, i hope i can see you like i see all of my friends. without any feeling and heart beat so fast haha. maybe hard, yeah i knw its hard, but i'll keep trying to frgt you, and i wanna do it, for myself.

to make me be a normal and can focus for my final exam :')

and i hope, i can wlcme and open my heart to other guy and get a new boyfriend haha. yeah i wish :'D