a kind of cameras, i love it all u.u

"you dnt know me, you jst dnt understand, you dnt how hurt is"

the girls with their own style

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

ha-ha ) :

you know, its so sadly if no one understand you, care about you, thingking of you and loving you. I prefer die than no one know about me, care about me. What can i do? Jst crying? Or being mad crazy girl? haha or be a real loser freak? Hey, please hear me! Look at me now! Im in! Im life! Why no one care about me? Why no one understand me? Oh God, Why you make my life so complicated and difficult? Should i die right now? YA! Maybe if i die they will be happy and make a big party to celebrate my deathness! HA-HA. Poor me. Maybe they won't cry or sad, ya, you know, they will be happy, ya, wverry happy! an then, they will get their freedom life without me :')

i am who i am. im not her or somebody else. im just i am.

girl and camera

Why?

Why no one care about me?
Why no one understand me?
Why no one know about me, my feelings?
Why no one help my problem?
Why no one make me happy?
Why no one make me laugh?
Why no one make me relax?
Why no one want to see me happy?
Why no one want to see me happy?
Why no one look at me in inside?
Why no one know who i am?
Why no one hear me?
Why no one respect to me?
Why no one think that im not important?
Why no one beside me?
Why no one look at me?
Why no one see me?
Why no one sharing wth me?
Why no one say that 'i need you'?
Why no one say that 'i miss you'?
Why no one say that 'i want you'?
Why no one say that 'i love you'?
Oh God, why you make my life so complicated and difficult?
What's my fault?

Brought Tears To My Eyes

• Boy: Hey, hun!
• Girl: Hey.
• Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren't you there?
• Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
• Boy: Oh really? Why?
• Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that's all.
• Boy: Oh.
• Girl: So what did you guys do in Math today?
• Boy: You didn't miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.
• Girl: Okay, good.
• Boy: Yeah.
• Girl: Hey, I have a question to ask.
• Boy: Okay, ask away.
• Girl: How much do you love me?
• Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.
• Girl: Yeah.
• Boy: Why did you ask?
• Girl: *silence*
• Boy: Is something wrong?
• Girl: No. Nothing at all. Um. How much do you care about me?
• Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.
• Girl: You would?
• Boy: Yeah of course I would. *sounding worried* Is there something wrong?
• Girl: No, everything's fine.
• Boy: Are you sure?
• Girl: Yeah.
• Boy: Okay. I hope so.
• Girl: Would you die for me?
• Boy: I would take a bullet for you any day, hun.
• Girl: Really?
• Boy: Any day. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?
• Girl: No, I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everyone and everything is fine.
• Boy: Okay.
• Girl: Well, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school.
• Boy: Alright, bye. I love you!
• Girl: Yeah. I love you too. Bye.
• THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL
• Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?
• Friend: No.
• Boy: Oh.
• Friend: She wasn't here yesterday, either.
• Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.
• Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.
• Boy: Yeah, but not her.
• Friend: I don't know what else to say, man.
• Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to English. I'll see ya after school.
• Friend: Yeah I gotta get to Science. Later.
• THAT NIGHT
• Girl: Hello?
• Boy: Hey.
• Girl: Oh, hey.
• Boy: Why weren't you at school today?
• Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.
• Boy: Are you sick?
• Girl: Um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.
• Boy: I’ll wait.
• Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.
• Boy: Alright. I love you.
• -very long pause-
• Girl: *with a tears in her eyes* Look, I think we should break up.
• Boy: What?!
• Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.
• Boy: Why?
• Girl: I love you.
• THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE
• Boy: Hey dude.
• Friend: Hey.
• Boy: What’s up?
• Friend: Nothing. Hey, have you talked to your ex lately?
• Boy: No.
• Friend: So you didn’t hear?
• Boy: Hear what?
• Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you…
• Boy: Dude, just tell me!
• Friend: Uh. Call this number, 433-555-3468.
• Boy: Okay, thanks!
• BOY CALLS THE NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
• Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Victoria.
• Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.
• Voice: What is their name, sir?
• *boy gives info*
• Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.
• Boy: Really? Why? What happened? How is she?
• Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.
• Boy: WHAT HAPPENED?!
• Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.
• Boy: WAIT! NO!
• THE BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM 646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. THE GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
• Boy: Oh my God, are you okay?
• Girl: *silence*
• Boy: Dear, talk to me!
• Girl: I..
• Boy: You what?
• Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.
• Boy: *breaks into tears*
• Girl: They're taking me off tonight.
• Boy: Why?
• Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .
• Boy: Why didn’t you tell me?
• Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.
• Boy: You could never hurt me.
• Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.
• Boy: Huh?
• Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
• Boy: *crying*
• Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be there with you.
• Boy: Then why did you break up with me?
• Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.
• The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
• NEXT DAY
• The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.
• THE NOTE SAID:
• “I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”

dnt be afraid of your life guys, jst let it flow :)

 two is better than one dear :)

Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

OH now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own
My Own