Aku tak percaya lagi

Dengan apa yang kau beri

Aku terdampar di sini

Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi

Akan guna matahari

Dengan mampu menerangi

Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap

Dan menunggu datang gelap

Sampai nanti suatu saat

Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita

Bila bahagia tercipta

Kenapa ada sang hitam

Bila putih menyenangkan...

Aku pulang...

Tanpa dendam

Kuterima.. kekalahanku

Aku pulang...

Tanpa dendam

Kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia

Kau ajarkan aku derita

Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia

Kau tunjukkan aku derita

Kau berikan aku bahagia

Kau berikan aku derita

"jst let you go and see you hppy wth her :')"

"he cnt be wth me anymore. his heart was taken wth another girl. 

he feels so happy , however i'll get a pain hhh :'("

8 abjad 3 kata 1 arti : I LOVE YOU

"if you want i frgt you, i will frgt you from my mind but not from my brain and my heart :')"

"your happiness wth her not wth me :'("

ha-ha

"see my eyes! you'll found sadness in my eyes"

Adhelia's Blog :)

"my happines = have you | my sadness = lose you"

"look at me! you can't feel wht i feel? please feel tht, you'll knw how much i lv ya!"

"believe it or not someday someone who you love will leave you"

"lemme tell you goodbye doesn't meant we'll never be together again, and it doesn't meant forever"

:')

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

dnt you remember you told me you loved me?

101010 please be my day :(

i'll go..

There's a star in the palm of my hand and I think it yours
if You don't want it then I'll understand
You deserve much more
When I brought it down from the sky, you almost forgot it
It was new back when you gave a damn
What you need, I'll go and get it

But if I don't come back
Girl, your love was worth it
That's the one thing I'll know
And if I don't make it back
Girl, remember that
That I said I'd go, baby

Girl your love is so hard
But it takes me so far
But I don't care, I'll go
No
If I don't make it home
At least now you know
Girl for you, I'll go

Got my heart in the palm of your hand
Now you're good, that's yours
If you don't want it I won't understand
Cause I came so far
When you tossed it
Took forever to find the place where you lost it
Now you're gone with my heart out the door
Home is here girl don't forget it.

But if you don't come back
Girl this love was worth it
That's the one thing I know
If you don't make it back
Girl remember that
That I said I'll go for you

Girl your love is so hard
And it takes me so far
But I don't care, I'll go
Nooo
If I do make it home
But at least now you know, I'll go

"tuhan tolong diriku..."

"kadang penyesalan itu datang, tapi kadang rasa ngerelain kamu itu datang"

10.10.2010

lo tau nggak perasaan gue yg sebenarnya gimana? lo tau nggak gue sakit tiap inget lo? lo tau nggak gue cemburu liat lo deket sama cewek lain? lo tau nggak kalo gue masih sering mikirin lo? lo tau nggak gue kesel liat lo jadian sama yg lain? lo tau nggak gue sakit hati envy liat lo seneng2 sama yg lain? lo tau nggak sih kalo gue tuh MASIH SAYANG BANGET SAMA ELO?! lo nggak nyadar apa gue bikin stat di fb pasti tentang elo! gue selalu ngarepin elo taunggak! tiap hari gue nunggu elo ngabarin gue tapi mana? elo nggak ada sama sekali ngubungin gue! gue nungguin lo tiap waktu, berharap bakal ada satu inbox dari lo! tapi apa? GADA SAMA SEKALI! gue sengaja matiin nomer gue yg satunya karena gue mau ngetes seberapa peduli lo sama gue! gue fikir lo bakal nyari2 nomer gue dan bakal dapet trus ngubungin gue. tapi apa?! ternyata segitu adj kepedulian lo sama gue :( nggak nyangka gue hubungan yg uda kita jalani hampir 1 tahun itu elo lupain gitu adj! lo inget nggak sih gimana kita waktu itu? gimana kita bahagia waktu itu? senang sedih sama-sama? inget nggak? oh lupa? mungkin elo suda lupa! tapi gue? gue GAKAN PERNAH LUPAIN smeua itu! tiap hari gue ngenang semua tentang kita! lo tau nggak gue TERSIKSA BANGET GARA-GARA ELO! lo nggak inget kah waktu lo manjain gue? lo nggak inget waktu lo telpon gue sampe malem sampe gue mabok lo nggak inget kah? gue tuh sayang sama lo by, syg bgt malah! tolong dng lo ngertiin gue. tolong liat gue disini yg masih setia nungguin lo! gaperlu lo cari yan glain kalo disini ada yg beneran tulus syg sm elo! gue mikirin lo tiap hari! gue khwatir lo kenapa-napa! gue masih sering kepikiran elo taugag! gue mikir lo ngapain, lo uda makan apa belon, lo sama siapa skrng! skrg gue tanya, LO JUGA MIKIRIN GUE NGGAK?! enggak kan by? enggak kan? by, tolong dng inget masa lalu kita itu. inget 02092009! inget waktu zakat fitrah! inget waktu lo panik waktu gue sakit! inget waktu gue nangis lo juga nangis! inget waktu lo nelpon gue sampe begadang bareng! inget waktu kita taruhan mie ayam! inget waktu lo teriak di rumah gue tiap malem! inet waktu lo ngelike link gue! inget waktu lo mohon-mohon sama gue! inget waktu lo message gue di fb bilang lo syg gue! bilang lo bby gue! bilang kalo masih syg! ngungkit-ngungkit masa lau kita! lo message gue ngingatin gue waktu lo nyuapn gue makan! waktu gue sembunyi di kolong tempat tidur lo! ngajakin gue balik! sekarang apa? GADA LAGI SEMUA ITU! SEMUANYA GADA LAGI! GUE NYESEL, KECEWA, MARAH, SEDIH!!! beberapa hari lalu lo sempat chat sama dhea, lo bilang gue mantan terindah lo, gue seneng, iya seneng. lo bilang gue mantan yg paling lo sayang. lo bilang padahal hampir setahun kita pcrn malah putus. tapi bukti omongan lo mana? mana? asal lo tau by, gue uda gunain berbagai cara buat lupain lo. gue uda berusaha tapi tetap adj gabisa :'( asal lo tau, gue bakal selalu syg sama lo, walaupun lo udah dgn yg lain. toh gapapakan selama gue nggak ngerusak hubungan lo? gada salahnya kan gue sayang lo? tapi gue bakal tetep berusaha ngelupain lo, gimanapun caranya.. iya ini bakal sulit dan butuh waktu yg lama, tapi gue tau gue pasti bisa ngelupain elo, kayak elo ngelupain gue. dan kalo lo uda jadi milik orang lain, inget gue nggak bakal ngerebut elo dari dia. makasih banyak by. makasih suda buat gue semenderita ini. makasih uda bikin gue jadi cewek lemah. gue munafik. makasih juga uda bikin gue selalu berharap dan mimpi. dan akhirnya mimpi itu nggak bakal terwujud dan bikin gue terjatuh, dan lo tau? sakitnya itu lebih sakit daripada elo nyakitin gue. meskipun gue skit hati, tapi gue tetep sayang elo. tetep sayang elo. fgp.